what right do i have?

what right do i have...
to question him?
to ask for an explanation?
to get angry?
to ask that i'm informed?

actually none at all! I should have seen this coming a long time ago, but I suppose, as always, I was caught up in the past when we were actually friends. It's strange to see how things have changed in such a short span of time, and till today, I have no idea what happened. How I can feel so betrayed and so hurt..but I must say, things have mellowed, it was a lot worse...

I keep questioning if things would have turned out differently when what I should have done is to accept these things as over and move on. I think this is the very one thing that I can't do. I can pretend but I definitely can't forgive or better still...forget..

The days have to go on and I still have to face him, so, all shall be better if I just pretend that nothing has changed, that I haven't heard anything new and that I shall always be in the dark. Let's just keep our fingers crossed and hope for the best, if it's all up to me, I would want to confront but I know that's futile...so to save my energy...I shall pretend