dazed mich...

hmm..i just got this blog deleted actually..didn't realise that it was happening..but i shall recap...=p...first...HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANQING..finally..in the same league as yixin now..how u feeling??..well..feeling really dazed now..doing stuff that r just daily routines..n not actions through thoughts..n that scares me a bit..yups..dazed coz used too much energy today..went to the gym in the morning..after the shocking news..of me..of all pple..getting an internship..i think that my reaction was really slow..coz i was still really calm talking to the lady in charge..n then..afterwards..i felt this adrenaline rush..so i went to run..i knew that if i acted on the adrenaline rush..i wouldn't have gotten anything done today...yups..i would have ran to the library..to the 3rd floor..n like screamed to my frens there n made a scene..n get us thrown out in the process..=p..nopes..i had the time to think abt wat this actually meant to me..i know that it's a gd thing...really..i m not stupid...but it's the contradiction between the mind n the heart again...i mean..i have been looking forward to going home all yr..i m so happy when i finally got the luxury of booking a ticket home on the 26th june..and all that thoughts of me going home on that day now is gone..i have to go home only on the 2nd sept..sighz..things that u have been looking forward to n now being extended further n further away from u is a very sad thing...hmm..but i keep telling myself..' jian qiang yi dian..mei wen ti de..jia you'..i really hope that i will listen to myself..really!!!..it's so frustrating to be contradicting urself...but i will get through this...i will!!!...miss u all!!!...=p 0128 hr - 010502