crying mich...

dunno exactly wat hit me..but i was just sitting in a little cornercorner of my room n tearing/crying for like 1/2 hr..i felt a lot better after that..but i really dunno wat happened...i m rather stressed abt the subject i m studying now..'survival models'..the subj title enough to scare most pple away..dunno wat's wrong with me..n like i studied it both yest n today..n like both days..there's this equation that i can't seem to derive..yups..i do things like that..anyway..so i was really frustrated n really on the brink of giving up everything..so i just decided to lock my door..blast my music n just sit there...so like work got out of my mind..but other things came into the pict...namely the fact that i won't be going home soon..hit me quite bad i must say..n i just started crying...hmm..now my eyes r really tired n i know it's going to swell up tmr...but still...i dunno..i felt that i have been controlling these tears for quite some time already..n like when it finally came..i dunno..i couldn't n didn't want to stop it..sighz..yups..aniwaes..feeling tons better now...will continue with my battle with survival tmr..but like i think work is the thing that has been keeping my mind occupied..such that i don't think unnecessarily..so when i try to get work out of my mind..other things surface..sighz....=p..0149hr - 12052002