lousy mich...

isn't is strange when u start feeling lousy abt urself..as if like u really m the shit..the chunk of garbage that everyone throws out..i dun noe y..but i really feel like that now..i started thinking abt how come pple that i think r not capable enough r getting internships n me..i m not..not even close..i mean..academically wise..i know that i have results to show..but is that all there is of me?...i screwed up 2 interviews just because i m clueless abt who i m..abt wat i can do..i think too highly of myself..i suppose..so i guess that there is a reason y i m not employed..it's plain n simple n yet..it bugged me previously for ages..it's just how lousy i m...=p..hmm..u feel down..but not really down enough to go out n drink urself silly..it's so weird..days like these..u just want to hide in ur little corner n hope that the world would forget u exist..n u could like melt away or sthg..but i guess learning to live with urself..with who u r..is where real courage is...hmm..it's going to take a lot for me..hahaha..i m sure to be one hell of a courageous ger...=p..seriously am at a loss now..dunno wat to do..mind's a blank..loss of words..of feelings...sighz...=p..1724hr - 140402